My story with Luna
This is a story of what I've had to live through for the past 7 months. I know it's long, but please read it. At this point @cyan and I just want the abuse to stop and to be left alone.
docs.google.com/document/d/1W2…
Update 9 months later: Luna did not stop her abuse, instead she escalated it. Part 2: vt.social/@lina/11445352530975…
My story with Luna (LunaFoxgirlVT)
TW: Attempted suicide, self-harm, emotional and mental abuse, gaslighting My story with Luna Twitter: @LunaFoxgirlVT | Bluesky: @lunafoxgirlvt.foxgirls.Google Docs
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Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
Unknown parent • • •sounddrill
Unknown parent • • •I've been away from the whole scene for a while due to exams, and saw a similar message on inochi's discord
What happened? Was there some kind of falling out?
Joshix
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Unknown parent • • •Jesse W.
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in reply to Jesse W. • • •ZILtoid1991
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •What about those "mildly inflammatory messages criticizing Asahi Linux, nijilive (the Inochi2D fork), and VT Social itself" messages? If they were truly made, then there should be some evidence for them? In the current state, it's a nothingburger, especially after hearing Luna's side of the story.
Also I've seen ableists trying to invalidate female autistic individuals by claiming "it's BPD, autism is a "boy's disease", and you look nothing like my low functioning second cousin".
maettu102
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •ari
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Sorry you had to go through this. I hope things get better for you.
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to ari • • •Lancelot
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •I didn't want to see that...
But this is not surprise, the constant self-pitying and self-harm warning while \@everyone-ing on inochi2d's annoucement channel already gave BPD away.
I hope she gets the medical help she needs and that you guys can recover and move on.
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Lancelot • • •Marc
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in reply to Marc • • •int*domi;*domi=0; // @ GPN (call DOMI)
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •as someone who also went through a lot of BS in the past few years due to my people not respecting my boundaries and being thankless about it later, I can… deeply resonate with parts of this document
sorry this happened to you, and hang in there! hugs
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to int*domi;*domi=0; // @ GPN (call DOMI) • • •vince
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •jfc that's awful 😕 you're a deeply knowledgeable and passionate person, and a gracious host. i guess through a lens of extreme insecurity that might seem overwhelming or intimidating, but that's just not at all a fair characterization. when we chanced to meet you went out of your way to be inclusive and entertaining, help me find gifts and food at weird hours, find my way home safely, and i still cherish those memories
i do hope you get some space to breathe and heal
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to vince • • •Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to maettu102 • • •Sobex
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in reply to Sobex • • •elly [ 3559@GPN23]
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Sensitive content
I've read it all since I was quite... shocked to hear someone would try to smear dirt on you.
Even as someone who dealt with many abusers, I have no words to describe Luna's behaviour. That being said:
- Showing no respect for boundaries
- Becoming more and more attached despite clear signs from other person they don't like it
- Trying to demonize you for alleged "betrayal"
- Blaming you for her decline in mental health despite lengths you went to help her
- Weaponizing her mental health/suicidal thoughts to grasp power over your actions via guilt
- Doxxing and misgendering you (hypocrisy much?)
- Possibly more, less apparent red flags
Makes it clear who needed help in this scenario, and who refused it multiple times. Feel free to throw rocks at me, that's just my personal take.
I'm sorry you two have to go trough this
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to elly [ 3559@GPN23] • • •Sensitive content
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
Unknown parent • • •Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
Unknown parent • • •Vinícius Peixoto
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in reply to Vinícius Peixoto • • •Yuki Hazuki ·𐑘𐑵𐑒𐑘 ·𐑾𐑨𐑟𐑵𐑒𐑘 葉月膤 ❄️ 🏳️⚧️
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Aw, this is unfortunate and awful you had to get through this, hope Luna will get some help, and that these events will be behind you
Personally, I was hoping to make a visual novel using Inochi2D to make character posing a bit easier, more automated, and hopefully more dynamic, and I knew integration with Ren'Py was a goal once the major rewrite was done, so I grew disheartened over time with development stalling with Luna's health as everyone else was waiting after that rewrite, so it's nice to see there's other people working on a fork
Do you know if integration with Ren'Py still a goal with the fork? In any case I'll definitely check this out :)
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Yuki Hazuki ·𐑘𐑵𐑒𐑘 ·𐑾𐑨𐑟𐑵𐑒𐑘 葉月膤 ❄️ 🏳️⚧️ • • •Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Yuki Hazuki ·𐑘𐑵𐑒𐑘 ·𐑾𐑨𐑟𐑵𐑒𐑘 葉月膤 ❄️ 🏳️⚧️
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Yeah, definitely, if I remember seagetch was a contributor towards the end, at least for the 0.8 branch while Luna was working on a 0.9, but you could feel he still had his hands tied, so I kind of understand him forking it will give him more leeway into pushing this forward
Also Ren'Py Tom seemed really interested working on this on the Ren'Py side but there was depedencies which made it hard to integrate until the rewrite was done, and of course, that was for Luna to figure it out
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Yuki Hazuki ·𐑘𐑵𐑒𐑘 ·𐑾𐑨𐑟𐑵𐑒𐑘 葉月膤 ❄️ 🏳️⚧️ • • •Kai
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in reply to Kai • • •MARIMO APPRECIATION ACCOUNT
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in reply to MARIMO APPRECIATION ACCOUNT • • •stage7
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in reply to stage7 • • •Sorunome
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Wha, had absolutely no idea all this was happening. Soru woshed the best to you & cyan, and hopes you'll have somepeaceful, quiet days soon 💚
For Luna, soru hopes you can find professional help and get better! 💚
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Sorunome • • •Piko Starsider
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •As an autistic critter I can also confirm that was not a meltdown. It may be autistic burnout mixed with something else. I don't think autism alone can really explain it.
I wish you two all the best, I hope you can leave all that behind.
I also wish her to find the help she needs. You all deserve to heal in peace, I hope she will understand that.
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Piko Starsider • • •41402-nyan
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •it honestly hurts reading all of this, can't imagine living through all of it.
I hope things get better for you both from now on
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to 41402-nyan • • •ame
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in reply to ame • • •Riedler
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in reply to Riedler • • •Stefanie | StefiStarlite
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in reply to Stefanie | StefiStarlite • • •Camille 🇵🇸🇳🇨
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •I didn't know you and your girlfriend had to go through that. I'm very sorry for both of you and hope you can both heal and find your peace again. Hang in there! :)
Henri
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •niko
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live reshared this.
Tammi 𓃠
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •cw: mental health, boundaries, borderline, suicidal
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Tammi 𓃠 • • •Paul Taylor
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •FPGA enthusiast
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Daniel
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •I'm sorry that you had to deal with this
Wishing the best to both of you, and hope Luna can get the medical help that she needs
TukanDev
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Anyway enough silly joke, wish you two the best and to put this behind and heal.
Jonathan Isom
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Thanks for sharing. Sorry you all went thru this. Honestly this to me sounds more like borderline personality disorder, but I am not an expert.
I hope everyone gets the time and/or help they need.
Alexis Paques
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •I am so sorry you had to go through all this.
I hope she manages to give herself boundaries to leave you alone and let herself some space to heal.
The least we can say is you were great friends and were as supportive as you could! Be proud!
Lionir
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •As someone who has had to deal with a similar person relatively recently, I feel your pain. It is hard to let go and to disengage. I just want to say: Luna's situation is not your fault, you did what you could.
I sincerely hope that you get the peace you deserve.
Dorrel Redmond
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •I read through the entire doc and geez that was a lot to take in. First off… sorry for the wall of the text lol
As I read the doc, some of the things I saw Luna post about made a lot more sense now that there was more context put into it all. Honestly all of her doomposting drove me to unfollow her ages ago because I already have my own personal issues to deal with and I didn’t want to keep seeing that. I had even wanted to try Inochi2D at some point, but she essentially drove me away from it with those posts and I stuck with 3D instead. I sincerely hope she is able to get the help she needs in the end.
That said, I’m so sorry you both had to go through this, let alone the uninvolved 3rd parties that got dragged in for various reasons.
I’ve seen and experienced manipulative people before (albeit not to this extent) and I know it can take time to fully recover from it all. I may not interact with either of you very much but I have looked up to you both for quite some time. Coming across your content a few years ago is part of what got me deeper into using open source projects in general. I wish nothing but the best for both of you and I hope you can all move forward from this whole mess in due time.
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •vt.social/@lina/11289271629054…
Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live
2024-08-02 13:42:24
benaki
in reply to Asahi Lina (朝日リナ) // nullptr::live • • •Hi,
I'm a total outsider here, and am frankly *amazed* Lina could manage such technological feats while all this drama was going on.
There are people who are black holes, who will sap your time, energy and resources with no gratitude and then stab you in the back at a moment's notice. Cut all contact with these people. They seek kind others to force responsibility on.
I wish you two the best, don't look back!
Regards,
Ben